The Cost of Love

Oh God help me please. I still feel this pain. God will it ever go away? Lord does Your pain ever go away? Do You ever have a day without pain? Lord You know all the worlds pain and You have experienced great suffering as You watched Your Only Son die for a world full of sinners. God how did You do it, why did You do it? Lord I will never understand Your love! I don't deserve Your love! No one does and yet You give it anyways.
Lord help me please to suffer well. I don't want to become angry or bitter. Lord I am still broken and I still need Your healing. Lord please heal my heart God and my children's hearts. I can't do this without You! I am weak. Thank You for hearing my prayer. My hope is in You Lord! In Jesus name amen.

I cannot do it alone;

The waves surge fast and high,

And the fogs close all around,

The light goes out in the sky;

But I know that we two

Will win in the end,

Jesus and I.

Cowardly, wayward, and weak,

I change with the changing sky;

Today so eager and bright,

Tomorrow too weak to try;

But He never gives in,

so we two will win,

Jesus and I.

I could not guide it myself,

My boat on life's wild sea;

There's One who sits by my side,

Who pulls and steers with me.

And I know that we two 

Will safe enter port,

Jesus and I.

~Streams in the Desert, L.B. Cowman~